Late last night Kyle and I snuck into the room where Lily was fast asleep dreaming. We both kissed her on the head and then just stood their staring at our sweet little baby. I look over at Kyle and he looks a little misty eyed. Kyle mentioned how when I was pregnant, we had a bittersweet moment of fully recognizing that having a baby would be the end of our "just us" days. We were excited to be expecting, but sad to say farewell to the carefree days of life just being the two of us. Kyle went on to say he has that same feeling now, but the bittersweet feeling comes from knowing how fast Lily is growing, and how she will not be a baby for long. Kyle reminded me how God has always known what we needed. It is so very true. We were sad to see our "just us" days go, but now we could not imagine life without this funny, beautiful little girl. We cannot think about how fast this time is going by, or it would bring us to tears (and it often does).
I often wonder how I will be able to love my next child as much as I love Lily. It doesn't seem possible to me to be able to love another child as much as I love her. But then again, I never thought I would have enough room in my heart to love another as I love Kyle. This is one of the great mysteries and joys of growing older... Your heart grows bigger than you could have ever dreamed. Where once I only had room for my wonderful husband, now it houses a huge love for my little girl, as well. And I know someday when our next baby comes, the Lord will give me room in my heart for another. Sometimes I think my heart will burst.
I feel extra sentimental these days; like if I were to blink, I will lose a precious moment of Lily's baby-hood. Sometimes I feel guilty if I even put her down to do the dishes. I just want her to feel her Mama's love so strong, all day long. I don't wish to miss a moment.
My husband and i feel the same way and felt the same way. I feel like my heart bursts on a daily basis some times!
ReplyDeleteSo great! I think this post is relatable to every momma. I often feel the same way about how i could ever love another child as much as I love P but I know I will when that time comes it's just strange to think about. I never could have imagined how much you could love someone until I had Peyton it is seriously a whole new level of love
ReplyDeleteI love this post. I'm expecting the arrival of my own little bundle of joy next February and I often feel a little sad because I realize that my 'me time' in life will be at an end; but at the same time my fiance and I are so excited. The idea of becoming a parent and thinking about how much that little one will be depending on me is really daunting. But this entry made me feel more confident. Thank you so much for sharing. :)
ReplyDeleteI have 3 kids and was also worried when I was having my 2nd if I could love him as much as my first, but I do. Your heart just gets bigger and bigger. I look at my youngest son now and am amazed at how much I love him. Time does go by so fast everyday and I always try to remember to slow down and cherish this time with them.
ReplyDeleteSo random, I literally just stepped outta a car coming home from a "girls craft night in" in which the topic of conversation on the way home was how my friend and I just don't think we are ready to give up our "just us" time with our husbands... then I came home and read this... :)
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing like being parents! It seems like every stage my daughter is in has me saying "this is my favorite". Of course it's sweet to reminisce of her baby days, but there is nothing like the silly, crazy, sweet, amazing toddler I have now. :) I think you're wise to skip the dishes and just hold her! :)
ReplyDeleteSo sweet. I can't wait to understand that love when I become a mother one day:]
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so beautiful! I want to experience that love you have for lily. I always think that I am just so selfish I can't possibly picture myself loving another person the way they should be. I get scared about being a bad mom before I even become one. Such a scary, scary thing to bring someone into this world. BUT you've reminded me just how great God is and that if I am blessed by being a mom some day the Lord will show me just how to Love and love with all I have...
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Oh darling. When I was pregnant with mia, that thought preoccupied me daily. How on earth will I gave enough love for her as well as gilles and elle. But as soon as she was here, I realised my heart just grew and the love came flowing. Looking at my hubby and elle now cuddled under the duvet on the sofa while I nurse, my heart could literally burst! X
ReplyDeleteAnd Lily continues to be the cutest bub the world has ever seen! ash xx
ReplyDeleteThis made me all teary eyed. My children are much older than your little sweetie, but still, I often have those same feelings. I often wonder if my heart will actually burst. The gift of love in marriage and children is so beautifully overwhelming, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteLove that beautiful baby all day long....the dishes can wait!
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that is so incredibly sweet. Life is mysterious in that way and I think if the different stages in life weren't so fleeting we might not enjoy them nearly as much. Little Lily will no doubt grow up to be such a lovely soul inside and out :)
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I couldn't have said it any better myself!.
ReplyDeleteYou took the words right nout of my mouth, except for the part where you said you wonder how you could love another child as much as Lily.
When I got pregnant with my second (my daughter) I cried a lot through that pregnancy thinking "Am I going to be able to love this baby as much as I love Judah" and then I would be at peace for a while until the thought "Am I going to love the baby more than I love Judah" and it kept going back and forth. It was an emotional time for me!
Once I had her I realized my love wasn't split, or that I loved one more than the other but that my heart grew with having her.
Then I got pregnant with my third and had no problems. I knew my heart would just grow.
That's so beautiful!
ReplyDeleteMy husband and I are looking forward to have a baby!! I can't wait :)
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This is so sweet. We are expecting a baby girl in a couple of months. I can't wait to meet her!
ReplyDeleteI realized that God grows a new heart to love the second child as fully as you love the first! It's an awesome experience. I love my two kids and I love your blog :)
ReplyDeleteThere's no limitation as to how much love you have or can have. You will love your next child as much as Lily and Kyle :) Lily's growing so fast & she's such a beautiful baby! <3
ReplyDeleteoh, she feels your love. You are an amazing mama. I love that picture of Lily. God did bless you both.
ReplyDeleteI loved this post, as I often worry about losing the "just us" time with my hubs. Some days I even think that we should put off TTC for a little longer than our targeted date. Of course, I then find posts like this and know that we don't really need to. :)
ReplyDeletei could have written this myself... my baby turns 6 months old today... and i have no idea how we got this far already!! i often cry because i feel like i'm missing so much - even though i am home with her all day! it's nuts! time goes so fast! it's definitely bittersweet...
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ReplyDeleteoh how I agree!
ReplyDeletemy heart jusst overflows with love for my little family.
i'm sure when i'm at that point of life i will feel that way too.
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I often feel the same way! My little Remington is almost 7 months it sometimes it makes me so sad to see how the time is flying by.
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